67 Days to Go

"Never thought I'd be alright, no, no, no
Till you came and changed my life, yeah, yeah, yeah!
What was cloudy now is clear, yeah, yeah!
You're the light that I needed, yeah, uh!"
- Christina Aguilera, Ain't No Other Man

Our lives together have been so enmeshed, and my memory has been so conveniently bad that it often feels like I have known you my entire life. Remember back when HONY was in Delhi, and you beat the traffic and met him, while all Varsha and I got was a glimpse of his face as he escaped in his car, and ran over my foot, or nearly so anyway? I remember back then thinking, I have NEVER seen her that happy.

The times have come and gone when I have seen you happier than that moment, and I am extremely proud of the fact that sometimes I have caused that happiness. Nikhil asked me today what I plan to do, once we’re married. My answer, though cliched, was simple. I vow to spend my life finding ways to make you that happy. Where you can’t bring yourself to stop smiling.

Life is coming to a head at this moment, with me putting my papers down today. We’ve gone back and forth on this decision, discussing the pros and cons – I know you were looking forward to come here and live with me in London – away from the shit that’s going on in India, not to mention a bit of distance from the family won’t hurt. But you stood by my side, and made me see that my time with NIIT was at an end, and that this was the right move, even if it meant we won’t get to do a lot of what we dreamed of, at least immediately.

I cannot believe how much your support means to me – I know I will still have second thoughts, I am a person who clearly sucks at change and making decisions – but we are a team, and it gives me a little clarity when making decisions that are best for us, not just me. Thank you for being my partner in every aspect of life.


Ps. I adore you, biwi mine.